Resolutions

It’s about that time again, the time where I and thousands of other people write down a list of all the things we want to achieve, all the ways we want to be better than we currently are, just to abandon at a minimum 80% of what’s on said list within a week or two.

I thought this year I’ll try to do it a bit differently. I have started this blog to act as a journal of sorts, I like the idea of it being online, it will keep me accountable in a way, or so I hope. The ambition here is to just write something as often as I can, it doesn’t need to be much, it doesn’t even need to be good content. It just needs to be something. In the past I have made this mistake where I kept thinking oh if its not perfect, might as well just don’t do it and so this is probably the 25th blog I start. Every other one has been abandoned on like post three.

So yes, this is sort of a resolution, in a way. Or actually, it’s more a tool to the resolution. Keep writing, to keep myself accountable. I think I am at a point in my life where I am fed up with everything. I hate how I look, I hate how I talk and sometimes I even hate how I think. This sounds dramatic, I assure you, I’m alright… just a diva.

Anyway, there are definitely things that could make me happier, so the purpose of this site is to be my diary. I won’t identify myself, allowing me to just honestly write how I feel and how I think. Even the really bad stuff. (I guess this is sort of your warning too)

That was a tanget, I actually came here to talk about resolutions and how this year I was gonna try and do them differently. In the past I have often times set resolutions like “Get a 1600 rating in chess!”, which is just too specific. I think this just doesnt work for me (I am still somewhere around 1200 👀 ).
So, instead this year my one and only resolution is to make myself feel better, no meassure to it, no guidelines, no rules, no legend on what better means. Just this time next year I’d like to reflect and think to myself “Dinz, you feel better than you did a year ago.” I hope I can take you guys along for the ride on trying to do that.